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7 Cups of Tea

I know I've told a couple people on my flist about this already, but I thought I'd make a post as well :)

I've recently joined a site called 7 cups of tea and I have to say it's already became a huge part of my life. If you ever need someone to talk to about anything that's bothering you, this is a site for you. You can connect to trained listeners who will lend you a sympathetic ear and won't judge you. All conversations are deleted. You could also join as a listener and help others by being there for them :)

If you want to check it out for yourself, you can do so here.
MASH Yes Sir!


I know I haven't posted in forever, sorry! Anyways, the Servicio Civil Internacional just posted a video on facebook of the workcamp I've been to last summer! It made me sooo excited, seeing all those people again <3 Also, the first sentence is me speaking lmao I'm not really proud about that, as it sounds terrible, but hey, it's a part of a longer thing (recorded at 11pm lol).

If you want, you can check out a post about my experience there: BASIDA

Linkin Park


I've been meaning to do this for a while, but I've finally posted all my fics to AO3. Well, not all of them, but the ones I'm not too embarrassed about :P But still, almost all of them, even the ones from 2006. It seems like ages ago. And it makes me want to write fics again. Inception fandom, maybe? Anyways, here's a link, even though I doubt anyone's interested: my fan fic. The majority is Linkin Park, two Remus/Sirius fics and one RDJ Sherlock.

And don't ask me about my thesis, please. September, here I come *facepalm*

MASH Say what?

Merry (early) Christmas!

I regret to say this, but this year I have failed as a human being and haven't sent any Christmas cards or gifts yet :( I am very ashamed. School has been super crazy, then our beloved (ex)president died, and I really haven't felt like writing any cards. I'm not really sure I'll be able to send anything before the 24th/25th and even if I did, it'd never come on time, but I'll do my best to send some New Year wishes at least :)

Also, I got a lovely card from
zimena, so thank you! <3

Hope you're all at least feeling the Christmas (Hanukkah etc) spirit, because I'm not.  
MASH Bravo

Václav Havel (1936-2011)

Today the Czech nation lost its last true hero and the whole world a respected icon. I still can't believe he's really gone. It makes me want to cry just thinking about it.

I won't write anything about Vaclav Havel here, you can find the news and his life story at any news site, I imagine, however I will say this: I am no patriot and there are not many people I truly admire, but he was definitely one of those. I really am proud to say that he was my president for a few years. Well, he still is, as I have zero respect for the current one.

He'll be missed, but never forgotten <3

MASH Bravo

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Okay, so I passed English syntax today. You probably don't understand, but it's seriously a miracle. The professor is a bitch and she didn't really teach us anything (other than that we're stupid), so I was expecting to have to repeat the exam a few times. I was so angry with myself after finishing it too, 'cause I stupidly didn't study the types of subordinate clauses and of course it was there. So I made up some shit and expected to fail. Well, turns out I apparently don't even need to study 'cause I got an A. However, I suspect she didn't even read it, 'cause I checked with the book we have and I totally made up my own linguistic terms, ha. Anyways, I don't care if she read it or not, I'm sooo fucking happy it's unbelievable. (And now I should start studying for Spanish syntax next week, but let's not talk about that.)

I have zero Christmas presents and no idea what to buy anybody, however, the A from fucking English syntax balances it out. I'd be even happier if I passed the other two exams I wrote this week (American literature and French) and the one I recorded in the case of Spanish Interpreting, but I don't really have high hopes regarding the last one. I've no idea how I could exchange 500 for 1500 THREE times but there we go. (If you speak Spanish you know how idiotic and unbelievable that is.) And that wasn't my only mistake, so I expect to have to repeat it on Monday, meh.

I know this entry is absolutely pointless but I just had to channel my overwhelming happiness somewhere.

R/S Games Team Moony author

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So now that the voting over at rs_games is officially over, I guess I can say my fic did better than I expected :) Obviously, I don't know how many people actually voted and how, but the comments are mostly positive, which I'm really glad for, considering the subject matter. The reveals are planned for next week, I think, so after that I might repost the fic here. In the meantime, here is the masterlist of fics and art from both teams :) I'm sure they're all wonderful, as every year, however, I haven't read very many, so I can't really rec anything *hides in shame*

Other than that, everything's the same as always. I've a lot of school work I'm trying to keep up with and no social life. Currently, I'm studying for a French test, and let me just say this... I admire everyone who can speak French. Seriously. I can't really imagine studying it as my second (or third even) language, because the fact that I know some English and Spanish helps me a lot. Without that I'd be totally lost. Which is not to say it's a piece of cake, it's really not. The good thing is, though, that I actually enjoy it, which I didn't think I would.

That's all for now, I'll rant some more later.
FC insomnia

Question time!

A meme snagged from zimena :) It's pretty easy, answer those questions in comments below and then repost it to your LJ, if you want :)

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
27) Do you believe in ghosts?
28) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
29) Do you swear a lot?
30) Biggest pet peeve?
31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
32) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
33) Favourite and least favourite food?
34) Do you believe in God?
35) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
MASH Yes Sir!

Meme time!

Comment to this post, and I will list five things I associate with you. They might make sense or they might be random. Then post that list, with your commentary, to your LJ (or just add a reply back at me).

A list from
zimena :

Work camp: Well, I've been to two work camps so far and I can honestly say they both made a huge impact on my life and helped to shape the person I am right now. I've discovered quite a few things about myself that I probably wouldn't have otherwise and changed my mind about a lot of issues. I certainly hope to do more voluntary work in the future, perhaps even more long term stuff than just a work camp.

Linkin Park: My first big musical love. My first big concert (in 2003!). I've loved them ever since I've heard Somewhere I Belong back in 2003 and never stopped, really. Sure, I'm not as obsessed as I used to be a few years back, but I'll still buy anything new they put out the first day it comes out. I still tell people they're my fave band (I see Nick Cave as a singer, okay?!). And who knows, maybe I'll return to my LP fan fiction days one day :P God knows I've had a great time there and made a few awesome friends <3

Books: Books are probably my biggest love ever, period. I think I might even have a book fetish or something, because the feeling I get when I enter a book shop is indescribable. I'm not even kidding. Also, I buy books I know I might never read; just to have them. I bought about 8 books in London this August and had to stop just 'cause I ran out of money. I am obsessed and loving every minute of it.

Czech:  Well, it's my nationality (not sure how I feel about that). It's also the language I've been speaking with more or less success since I was about a year old. Honestly, I have moments when I'm really proud to be Czech and can somewhat understand what national pride's all about. However, the moments when I'm either embarrassed or angry have been more frequent recently. Sometimes I wish I had been born somewhere else, with better people, better attitudes, better opportunities etc. But then I think of all the people dying of hunger in Africa, fighting wars or being discriminated against and tell myself to shut the fuck up and be grateful for what I have.

Pavel Nedvěd: My first football love :) My only Czech football love. He's probably the best player we've had in years and I can't really see anyone who could replace him or be as good as him in the near future. He's also the reason I'm now friends with
zimena, so thanks for that, Pavel! <3

And now a list from
cat_irix :

Sherlock Holmes: I've always loved Arthur C. Doyle's genius detective, ever since I can remember. However, I'm not a Holmes fanatic or anything like that, I watched the series when I was a kid and read a few books. And then, in 2000 something Guy Richie decided to cast Robert Downey Jr. as Sherlock Holmes in his movie and I was totally sold :P My brief fling with the fandom followed immediately and I regret nothing :)

Fight Club : Arguably my favourite movie ever. And a book too. I know it's a cliche to say that, but Fight Club really kinda changed my life. It introduced me to Chuck Palahniuk, Chuck got me into the beatniks and most importantly into William Burroughs. But back to Fight Club. I'd recommend the movie to everybody, y'all need to see it! It's become a classic by now, but anyways, and it's just a great movie. I kinda wish I could go back and watch it for the first time again, as the mind fuck is mind blowing :P

depression : I wouldn't say I'm depressed (in the original sense of the word, as it gets abused a lot nowadays), but I do have periods of being really unhappy. Partly, I somehow enjoy (even though the word probably isn't the best choice here) wallowing in the feeling of sadness and misery, while listening to depressing music and hating myself. Partly, however, I do get bouts of being sad even though I don't want to be and that really sucks. Also, I kinda think I have predispositions to being depressed as I'm very neurotic, a pessimist by nature and my father really is clinically depressed. Even though he'd never admit it.

languages: Another one of my loves :) I could ramble a lot about my studies (starting French this semester!), or about all the shit I know about different languages etc, however, I've decided to take it from a different angle. I've been thinking a lot lately what it is about speaking a foreign language that is so appealing to me. And, one day, I suddenly had an epiphany. It's like I become somebody else when I speak a foreign language. I become this new person that's not attached to my normal insecurities, fears and self-hatred. I can say things I'd never say, I can do things I'd normally wouldn't do... it's simply liberating. I don't why that is, but it sure is nice not being my usual self from time to time.

Nick Cave: Okay, don't get me started here. I love Nick Cave. He's my fucking hero, inspiration, all that stuff. I love his music, his lyrics, his books, his ideas. He makes me want to read the Bible, even though I'm atheist, to better understand his songs. He can make me cry or smile or shudder or laugh. I've had the pleasure of seeing him live twice, but only at this summer's concert I got to held his hand twice and be soo fucking close. My mother told me "You touched God!" Well, I imagine it might have felt like that, if I was religious :P
MASH Say what?

"We're all weeping now, weeping because there ain't nothing we can do to protect you..."

Perhaps some of you have heard about the plane crash that occurred yesterday in Russia, in which an entire hockey team died. There weren't only Russian players in that team, as you might have guessed, some of them were from Germany, Slovakia, and three from the Czech Republic. All of them dead.

I'm not a huge fan of hockey, but even in spite of my lack of interest, I've heard about those three Czech players before, as they were a part of the national team and won several championships etc. It's a terrible tragedy and I feel for their families (they all had young children) and friends.

However, to the actual point of this entry... Throughout the whole day yesterday, browsing facebook and various other social sites, I kept wondering what's the 'right' thing to do. Do I mourn for them? Do I join those facebook groups that say 'RIP blah blah blah'? Should I be sad or should I move on with my normal life? I mean, I've never met those people, I've just vaguely knew about their existence. And I'm sure the same goes for at least half the people who were posting mournful statuses yesterday, joining facebook groups and publicly professing their grief. If they didn't die, half of those 'mourners' would never even give those hockey players a second thought.

Somehow, this reminds me of Fight Club. "In death, a member of project Mayhem has a name."

I hate living in a world, which makes me feel obliged to care about the deaths of certain people, but not others. And this is not a 'celebrity' thing. I'm not saying people shouldn't mourn for celebrities. I'd sure as Hell be pretty devastated if one of my favourite actors/musicians/writers/etc died. I'd be sad, because I have some emotional attachment to their work, because they made some sort of impact on my life, because I cared about them during their lives.

However, why should I mourn for somebody just because the media tells me to? Or because my peer group jumps on the bandwagon of grief? It is very sad. I acknowledge that and move on.

Hundreds of people die every day. People we've never heard about before. I barely knew those hockey players even existed before yesterday, so I put them on the same level as everybody else in the world, who died yesterday.

(Feel free to express your opinions on this topic, I'd like to know what others think.)
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