Make a stand, take my hand...

<3

2009-12-24T14:41:41Z

Merry Christmas! <3

Breathe in the Christmas mood lmao

What if they like you because you are weak? What if your guardian angel's a creep?

2009-12-19T12:22:58Z

Okay, so thanx to the wonderful and awesome seether_79 I now have a paid account :) However, I've no clue what the actual benefits of that are (yet), apart from being able to upload more icons :) I'm sure I'll figure it out somehow one day though lol

I know I haven't been around much lately, but school caught up with me and I had to actually study, gosh. However, that's nothing compared to what's to come in January, seeing as I've like 10 big exams. Oh the joys of university studies *weeps*

Also, Ive failed my driving license exams five (5) times so far. Yes. And no, no comment. On Monday attempt no. 6 will happen. I have no expectations whatsoever anymore.

Hm, what else. No Christmas mood in here. I have yet to send a few cards. And I have no presents. And I probably won't get any presents either. And we're not having a Christmas tree this year either, partly because of the cat.

Okay guys, hope you're all enjoying the holidays :) More than I am, that is.

barush @ 2009-12-08T17:53:00

2009-12-08T16:53:54Z

I just want to say a huge THANK YOU to captainmarveljt , petii , seether_79 and thegreenkat for sending me v-gifts! <3 That was so nice of you :) I love you guys <3

The last line killed me :D

2009-12-04T22:14:35Z

Stolen from seether_79

On the twelfth day of Christmas, barush sent to me...

Twelve abbichickens drumming

Eleven serafina20s piping

Ten suckmyspocks a-leaping

Nine andreaknolls dancing

Eight ivanaicms a-milking

Seven dogs a-swimming

Six lyrics a-writing

Five bo-o-o-ooks

Four movies

Three concerts

Two languages

...and a braz in a hugh laurie.

My life according to House :)

2009-11-28T21:32:12Z

Yes, another meme :) This time stolen from suckmyspock

How to do this meme: Using only EPISODE names from ONE TV SHOW, cleverly answer these questions. Try not to repeat an episode title. It’s a lot harder than you think! Repost as "My life according to (show)".

Describe yourself: It's a Wonderful Lie
How do you feel: Alone
Describe where you currently live: You Don't Want to Know
If you could go anywhere where would you go: The Greater Good
Your favorite form of transportation: Airborne
Your best friend is: Under My Skin
What's the weather like: Epic Fail
Favorite time of day: One Day, One room
If your life was a TV show, it would be called: Failure to Communicate
What is life to you: Needle in a Haystack
Your fear: Dying Changes Everything
What is the best advice you have to give: No More Mr. Nice Guy
Thought for the Day: Joy to the World
How I would like to die: Sex Kills (lmao)
My soul's present condition: Que Será, Será (What will be, will be)
My motto: Ignorance Is Bliss

Well, that wasn't easy at all :)

Another meme! Without further ado... :)

2009-11-27T16:41:55Z

Stolen from brachypelma99

I WILL BE COMPLETELY HONEST FOR 24 HOURS... you can ask me one question (comments screened!). Any question, no matter how crazy, sinister, or wrong it is. I WILL answer no matter what. You have my FULL honesty, but I DARE you to post this on your LJ! and see what questions you get! DO IT!! now LOL

Memes! (Yes, plural, because I suck at posting them right away.)

2009-11-25T22:19:15Z

So, I decided to finally do at least a couple of the memes I've been planning to. Both are stolen from seether_79

1)List 5 celebrities you would have sex with without even asking questions.
2) Put all of them IN ORDER of your lust for them [5 - 1, 1 is the hottest].
3) Say which movie/show/thing it was that hooked you.
4) Supply photos for said people.
5) Tag five friends to do the same.

5) Chester Bennington

The lead singer of Linkin Park. There were days when he'd make it to the top maybe, alas... Fifth place it is now. I've liked LP since 2003 I think and Chester was once of the reasons I got into them :) Not only his looks, but his awesome voice too ;) And of course the fucked up past, as I'm an angst!whore lol For a while he (and LP) was my biggest obsession, but not anymore. But who knows what'll happen in the future? lol

4) Keanu Reeves

It seems like I've liked Keanu forever :) He's a great actor and the prototype of the perfect male beauty, at least for me ;) I guess there's nothing more to say, really.

3) Nick Cave

Yes, I think he's totally hot! And not only used to be, still is <3 There's something so... dark about him that totally makes me bothered in all kinds of places ;) And even though I love his music, it was his book that I knew first and through that discovered his other stuff.

2) Edward Norton

Edward's one of my very favourite actors <3 I knew him even before I saw Fight Club, but in that movie he totally won me over. His acting is really amazing, I believe him every word he says, no matter if he plays an insomniac with a split personality disorder or a Nazi. This guy can just do anything :)

1) Hugh Laurie

I think the picture says it all lol well, what did you expect? He's my current obsession. And even though he's 50, I'd jump him right away :) I guess there's nothing more to add :D

Okay, I'm gonna tag 5 people I think might actually do this, but you absolutely don't have to :
captainmarveljt , cat_irix , wierush , zimena , mononoke_007

1. Reply to this post, and I will pick five of your icons.
2. Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
4. This will create a never-ending cycle of icon squee. Whoo!

Tyler Durden, made by me. Simply because I love Fight Club and couldn't find any FC icons :) Not great or anything, but I guess it serves the purpouse of promoting the awesomeness of Tyler and that quote :)

Made by me again, for the same reason, there are simply no Nick Cave icons out there! The lyrics are from Loverman, an amazing song by Nick. I just couldn't resist :)

This icon I stole from smb who is credited in the icon info :) Linkin Park is still my fave band and I was looking for something where all of them were featured. So this was the perfect choice.

I think this is the best of all the icons I'm using. One, it features my fave actor in my fave movie and two, I love the quote. Again, maker credited in icon info.

An adorable Hugh Laurie/House icon :) I had to snag it when I saw it, just simply couldn't resist! I think everyone should use at least one House icon lol

I'm going in for the kill...

2009-11-21T13:05:24Z

Okay, so I guess there's been enough whining in this journal to last at least a few more days, so it's time for smt different! :)

My LJ and RL friend wierush (yes, RL friend on LJ, the horrors! lol) wanted to see some more pics of Marla the cat so here you go :) They've been all taken a week ago or so.

As I've mentioned a few times, poor plants lol

Yes, we bought this monstrosity just for her

So that's our little kitty and her big toy lol We were at the vet today and she needed a shot for some infection or what. So in the process of trying to administer the shot, Marla bit my mother so much that it started to bleed lol Yes, I find it amusing, probably because it wasn't my hand :)

On another note, I'm going to the cinema today to see 'Antichrist' :) There's some festival of French movies, so they're showing each movie once only so I was kinda lucky to get tickets for this one. It'd better be good lol

Other than that, nothing too exciting happening in here.

'At' mír dál zůstává s touto krajinou...'

2009-11-17T14:03:12Z

Today it's exactly 20 years since the communist reign in Czechoslovakia ended and we became a democratic state. So that's why I don't have school and can procrastinate and watch House. Speaking of which, I loved the latest episode :) Speaking of the Velvet Revolution (fancy name, eh?) I guess I'm glad we don't live in communism anymore (now, not that I ever have, but that's beside the point) but I cannot say the political situation in here is much better. But I don't care about politics in general, so back to whining.

Sometimes it feels like I'll probably have to quit facebook. Or just go there much less than I do now. If you've read my latest post, you know why. If not, then just know that I'm a pathetic jealous creature. Initially, when I decided to make this post, I wanted to talk about that a bit more, but I've decided I won't bother you with my insecurities and make an even bigger ass of myself. So let's change the topic again.

Erm, driving lessons. I failed the practical exam again. Don't say that surprises you. However, this time, I didn't make any big mistake so the guy was just an ass. But I'm getting kinda tired of it, really. The next time will be the fifth and I'm not sure I wanna bother again. It's not like I need a driving license that much.

School's been okay. A lot of lessons were canceled lately so I didn't have to study much. However, I should look at Latin today, ew.

I wanted to post some new pics of Marla but I'm too lazy now. Maybe sometime later, if anyone would be interested.

So that's about everything that's going on in my life now. Yes, terribly exciting. Hope y'all doing much better <3

PS: to explain the title of the entry, it's in Czech obviously. A line from a famous song sung by a famous singer on the day of the Velvet revolution in Prague for thousands of people. The line roughly says 'Let peace continue with this country...' If anyone is interested, you can watch the video here 'Modlitba pro Martu' :) There's an english translation too.

barush @ 2009-11-15T16:30:00

2009-11-15T15:33:12Z

You know, I hate myself for being insanely jealous of other people's lives.

The worst thing that can happen to you is to get a taste of what life could be like and then get thrown back into your own pathetic day to day reality.

And I hate myself for thinking that too.

I just plain hate myself, I guess.

Not a proper update yet, but fun nonetheless (hopefully)

2009-11-15T11:46:04Z

stolen from captainmarveljt

The first ten people to comment give me a request for a picture to be taken of something in my life.
Then those 10 people who requested photos have to post this same challenge in their own journal, with 1 additional rule (of their own choosing). The 10 people who comment on that entry, have to add ANOTHER rule of their own, and so on and so forth.

My rule....nothing super creepy. (chickloveslotr)

My rule...that requires me to pack extra stuff for my trip (rusted_halo)

My rule... nothing pervy (captainmarveljt)

My rule... I don't have any, anything works (barush )

Anyone interested in writing? :)

2009-11-07T00:48:10Z

Yeah, I know I haven't updated in ages (again) but I will soon :)

Anyways, I'm posting this to plug a lovely writing community writing_weekly It's not about any specific fandom, so if you're interested, have a look :) It's currently being revived and a new prompt is up :)

That's all for now but I'll be back lol

Picture yourself in a boat on a river, with tangerine trees and marmalade skies...

2009-10-11T13:51:41Z

You possibly cannot imagine my surprise, when, searching for some info on my homework to intro to literature, I stumbled upon 'Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds' by Beatles on wiki and found out the poetic metre of the song was dactylic tetrametre. It made my day like a hundred times better, seriously. Sad, eh? Yeah, that's where I've ended up, counting syllables in English and Spanish poems, trying to decide if they're stressed or unstressed and if they follow some pattern. If so, then which? Iambic? Dactylic? Trochaic? Probably needles to say I've no clue most of the times. But, I have what I wanted so I'm supposed not to complain, right?

On another note, Marla is the sweetest little thing that exists :) Well, when she wants to be. She can also be a pretty mean, annoying cat. I don't care really, but she already damaged like 3 plants and my mother keeps making some crude comments like 'if she does it again, she goes'. I mean, come on, she'll do it again 'cause she's a stupid cat! The point is, I'm not sure if my mother would actually follow through with her threats, but I already know, after like a month, that I can't imagine not having her around. The cat, I mean. So every time I hear some angry shrieks I always anticipate that it'll be the last straw. Dunno what I'd do in that case.

Also, I got an email from my father on Friday. It was just a few lines, the usual 'what you've been up to blahblah' and then he just casually informed me that we won't be going to my aunt anytime soon 'cause she's been sick for a long time and thinks she has cancer. Oh and could I translate these two sentences to English for him? He's not sure about the articles. Okay, so... Wtf just doesn't cut it anymore. I mean, it's his sister for Christ's sake! And one of the very few relatives I actually love. So, I have no fucking clue what to write back to him.Or if I should call/write to my aunt, but she wouldn't tell me anything. So, I guess I'll just wait 'till somebody bothers to inform me she died, because it works like that in this family. Fuck.

But, to make this post not so whiny and pathetic, I've decided you all need to see my new bag which I bought the last time we were in Prague, like 2 weeks ago maybe. So, follow the cut if you want to :)

Okay, ignore my terrible hair and our terrible train lol
It was fucking expensive, but I love it:)

So another whiny post, sorry. I'm gonna do some more homework now probably. Oh well.

barush @ 2009-10-05T08:38:00

2009-10-05T06:51:20Z

Okay, so I came to school today, before 8am no less, just to realize the first 2 classes were canceled. So now I'm sitting here in a public comp room with two hours on my hands and reading fanfic. I could probably study or smt. but I'm too lazy for that.

So, about school. After the 2 weeks I've had I can say it's not too bad. Not great, but not terrible either. There are classes I like and some that I know will be a problem probably (like phonetics, ew). English is better than Spanish so far, but only because my English is much (and I mean much) better than my Spanish, for one, and also, half the Spanish classes are essentially Czech grammar and linguistics. Now I'm waiting for history of Spain, which is also in Czech. But I don't really mind, 'cause at least I can understand it lmao

Also, I've met some nice people, girls mainly, as there's like 98% of girls in my classes lol Well, I don't wonder really.

So, I'll cut it short, as I've only limited time on the comp. Over all, uni has been okay so far. Good, but nothing life changing.

I'll post something more soonish, I don't wanna neglect my poor LJ anymore lol

It's been so long (and I've been putting out fire with gasoline)...

2009-09-19T13:25:30Z

Okay, I know I've been a very bad LJer lately and I'm sorry :( I can't say I've been exactly busy, but there's been some stuff going on in RL. And I haven't been feeling too well either, but that's another story.

So, what's new. First, I'm going back to school on Monday, after 4 months of doing literally nothing! Apart from that, it's a university, so something totally new and different and... I kinda dunno what to expect. I have a timetable already (but it's a subject to change) so I know what classes I'll have and I can't say I'm really thrilled, but I guess I'll have to wait and see what it'll all be like. So, that's the end of the longest holidays in my life I guess. However, I must say, I've had a really great time during those 4 months (mostly) and I think I'm ready to go back to routine stereotype and exercising my brain again :)

Also, I failed my second attempt at the driving exam (surprise, surprise) so I'll have to try for the third time (and it might not be the last) at the end of September.

But, here it comes, the biggest news I have - I HAS A KITTY!!! =) Yes, really, no kidding, I have a cat! Long story short, my uncle persuaded us to take the last of their kittens (under the threat of just letting it go on its own somewhere if we didn't take it!). So it was a rather spur of the moment decision and here we are, with a little devil on our hands:) I have the bloody scratches to prove it! Really, she's cute and everything, but she can also be pretty wild and mean. But I guess that's a cat for you. Oh and not to forget - her name's Marla:) Yup, the Marla Singer from Fight Club:)

So, without further ado, I present you (If you have me friended on facebook, you might have already seen those)

I totally adore her green eyes <3

at least one of us looks good here lol

Cute, eh? That's because she's asleep =)

on my table:)

rawrrrr :D

And with my mother lmao

Most of the time, she's a cute, little, 3 months old kitty:) But sometimes she's a little bitch! lol

So, I guess that's all from me for now:) But how you've all been? :) Feel free to rant or whatnot here, I wanna get up to date with y'all!

More later, but...

2009-08-26T09:58:19Z

I'm back from Athens and I gotta say it really sucks, 'cause I've had the most awesome time there. It was like a different world, so returning to reality which is not as awesome kinda hurts. Also, I miss demetrelli so fucking much :( We got on better than I could have imagined.

Oh well. I guess I'm slowly getting used to the idea of being back here, sadly. I'd go back if I could :(

barush @ 2009-08-16T23:16:00

2009-08-16T21:22:38Z

Okay, so, leaving to Prague early morning tomorrow and then Athens to meet my beloved demetrelli. I just hope she won't hate me.

Today was weird, I cried a few times and felt odd. But, dunno, I'm a bit better now *knocks on wood/fingers crossed/pleasepleaseplease* So I hope, hope, hope it'll stay that way.

*knocks again*

Anyways, just wanted to tell you that I probably won't be around (much?) 'till next Monday or Tuesday.

So have fun here without me :) Love you all <33

I'm sorry but this is gonna be short...

2009-08-15T15:24:19Z

France was really, really, really, great. Really. I loved it. Definitely wanna go back. Who doesn't have facebook or we're not friends there - you should be able to see my pics here. Paris is really beautiful.

I'd write more, but since I got back, I've felt like shit. I'm crying every day, today I started even in front of my father. God. I've no idea what it is, but I suddenly get this weird feeling and that's it, I'm gone. My mother thinks it might be my thyroid condition perhaps. Or just anxiety. I have no idea. But frankly it's rather scary.

Also, as some of you know, I'm going to Athens on Monday. So I'm hoping it'll be okay. Because I'm such a mess now that I can barely function. However, in France I was fine. It started when I got home. So that might have smt to do with it as well, no idea. Fuck. It's never been this bad. So if it doesn't stop somehow, I'm gonna see a doctor for my thyroid and then probably a psychiatrist.

Oh well. Sorry for the rant.

You're gonna love this cryptic sound...

2009-08-02T14:13:49Z

I haven't updated for a while, but it's not like anything too exciting has been happening lately.

Alas, surprise, surprise, I didn't pass the practical part of my driving license exam. But that was expected. Dunno when I'm gonna try again, probably the end of August.

Also, I'm going to France (Paris mainly) on Tuesday with my friend. Not only the two of us though, it's a 'normal' sight seeing trip with a travel agency. I'm really looking forward to it, 'cause France is one of the European countries I haven't been to properly yet. I should be back on Monday the 10th, I think. And a week after that I'm going to Greece to bother the lovely demetrelli :) However, my mother started to freak about that (admittedly, later than I expected), so I suppose the week before I go will be rather... interesting. Oh well.

And I've been tagged by seether_79 so here's a meme.

You know the rules, you have to tag eight persons, if you are tagged you have to do it tooo!!! (But honestly, if you are tagged and you don't do it, the cops will not knock at you door.....)

1. When you sleep: elanced or side by side ?

Er, side by side I guess.

2. What kind of books do you read?

I read a lot of books, as I love reading. I can't say I read a specific 'kind' though. I have favourite authors (many of them) and other than that I usually go for whatever book that catches my interest. But I can't resist anything from the Beat generation.

3. What are your most awesome skills?

Er, I'm not aware of any awesome skills lol Something weird though is that I remember voices pretty well, better than names or faces.

5. What's really creepy?

Weird noises, when I'm home alone at night. Usually, it's just the fridge, but I can really scare myself into believing something's gonna eat me lol

6. What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?

House, of course. Can't wait for season 6 to start!:) Also, after HBP I started to read Remus/Sirius again.

7. If you could be right now with someone in your flist, with who you'd want to take a coffee with ??

Many people, as you're all wonderful <33

8. What websites do you always visit when you go online?

My email, LJ, facebook.

10. What do you do to relax?

Read fan fiction, listen to music and drink coffee. All at once, preferably :)

11. What is your worst fear??

That someone really close to me will die/get seriously ill.

12. What do you do to change your mood?

I dunno, usually I'm not really trying to change my mood. But when I'm really angry, which rarely happens, I just listen to some rock music very loud and pace.

13. What is your zodiac sign?

Aries.

14. Do you want to learn another language?

Yea, I'd love to. However, I'm gonna study English and Spanish next year, so I don't wanna confuse myself with another language just yet.

15. Five things you can't live without.

Gosh, that's hard. Well, if I take it as 'things' only and exclude people... My computer, my mp3 player, all my books, all my CDs, coffee lol

16. What's something you'd like to say to someone right now?

There are so many things... But maybe I'd like to apologize to a few people.

17. What are you looking forward to?

Currently, the trip to France :)

18. Say something to the person who tagged you:

She's one of the wonderful people on my f-list that I'd like to have a coffee with :) Maybe it'll happen one day lol

Also, even though I usually do, I'm not gonna tag anyone this time. Do it if you want to :)

PS: I can't be assed to correct the colour around the LJ user names. You'll have to deal with it.

HBP (possilble spoilers?)

2009-07-18T15:07:13Z

Just a quick note to tell you I've seen Harry Potter 6 already :) And... It wasn't as good as I expected, to be honest. Too much hype I reckon.

Loved Ron, but that's a given so... :) The scene with the love potion had me laughing out loud lol Well, the comedic aspect of the film was pretty awesome. And Severus was great too, so dark and dangerous *flails* And omg I even liked Draco. Actually, the movie made me like some characters that I'm not so fond of in the book.

Anyways, Harry and Hermione were rather pathetic in some scenes, sorry to say that. However, I admit I'm biased.

Oh and a question for anyone who's seen the movie. What happened between Ron sitting down to Harry and Ginny in the Burrow and then Remus, Bella etc appearing among the... grass during the Death Eater attack? 'Cause, you see, there was a break in the middle (so the kids can go pee and parents can buy more popcorn I assume), but when it started again it looked like there were a few minutes missing! The only scene with Remus too! grrrr However, I'm gonna see it again on Sunday (long story about me being pathetic and not able to say 'no'), so I hope the next time that won't repeat and I'll get to see a few seconds more of Remus *sigh*

Over all, I did like it, but I wasn't blown away or anything. Too much Dumbledore, too little Remus, almost nothing about the half blood prince, too disjointed... But I get the movie would have to be like 5 hours to fit everything in. Oh well. I'm positive I'll like it better the second time and when I finally SEE IT IN ENGLISH!! *headdesk* Yes, it was dubbed. No, no original version is available here as of now. Some of the Czech voices were terrible, especially Ginny, her voice made me cringe so much, ouch. So I guess I'll wait 'till I'm able to get my hands on the DVD and see it in original and then I'll definitely make up my mind about it.

If anyone wants to share their thoughts feel free to, I wanna know what others think! :)

Can you really see all the stitches?

2009-07-17T11:32:51Z

Hey! Yeah, I'm back and alive :) The festival was awesome, probably the best out of the 3 years we've been to so far. I think I've fallen in love with Jamie Cullum too, he was beyond adorable and the show was really entertaining. I've posted some pics on facebook so the ones who have friended me might have seen them. If anyone is interested in being my fb friend just leave a comment or smt lol But I'm not the most interesting person.

The only thing that sucked was that I didn't get to meet Kat again, meh. Some other time maybe? lol

Also, I'm now officially a university student. I've some issues with the timetable but I don't feel like rambling now.

And because I haven't done any meme in ages, here is one stolen from demetrelli

Are you ready for a relationship?
No.

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
MY best friend, Dius, at the Colours festival.

Who was the first person you texted this morning?
I haven't texted anybody today yet.

Are you tired?
Seeing as I woke up like an hour ago I have to say no.

Is there someone you want to see?
Yeah,of course. And only one person either.

Are you in a good mood right now?
Dunno, normal I guess. Not good not bad.

Is your hair naturally straight?
Not really, if it was longer it'd be wavy.

Do you think it's cute when a boyfriend/girlfriend buys you a random gift?
Well I guess so :)

What are you looking forward to in the next 4 days?
Hm, seeing HP6, twice lol

Do you think more about the past, present, or future?
Dunno, I'd say the future probably. But at times I'm too obsessed with the past too.

Are promises important to you?
It depends. If I believe they are genuine then yes. If I feel the person doesn't really mean it then I don't care if the promise is kept.

Would you ever tell someone you loved them first?
No idea. Probably not though, seeing as I'm too insecure and self-conscious.

What is the last thing you said out loud?
"see you" when I was talking to my grandmother on the phone today.

Anyone of the opposite sex been on your mind lately?
Well, if you count people I've never met before and know just from mass media then yes :) Otherwise, no.

Someone knocks on your window at 2 am, what do you say?
Well I doubt anyone would able to do that as we live on the 3rd floor lol But even if it happened I doubt it'd wake me up.

Will you be in a relationship next month?
Well, I'm married, so I hope that it'll last lol

Where were you at 1AM saturday morning?
Probably at some concert, but I can't remember which one lol

Anyone you're giving up on?
Well, there might be a few people.

What were you doing at 10:30 last night?
Watching a movie with my mother. It was kinda good too.

Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
Well, sure, that's natural, no? Even though I know that everybody lies lol

Who will you be sleeping with tonight?
Winnie the Pooh. Seriously.

What's something that can always make you feel better?
Music, fan fiction (yes, really) and friends.

Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Um, guess so.

Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you?
Yeah, even though I'm not sure it can be counted as 'nasty'.

Have you ever worked in a food place?
Nope, thank god.

What would you name your future son?
Hypothetically speaking, as I don't want kids, it'd be probably Jack or Gregory, 'cause I've always liked those names :)

What's on your schedule for tomorrow?
Going to my grandmother and then probably doing nothing as usually.

Do you eat junk food everyday?
Not every day.

Did you hold hands with anyone yesterday?
Don't think so.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
Never tried it so I wouldn't know.

Do you know how to change a diaper?
No and I don't wanna know, kplsthx.

Is there someone who makes you happy every time you speak with them?
Yeah, sure :)

Is there someone you could spend every minute with and be happy?
Hm, Im not sure about that, but I think so.

What is the last thing you got in trouble for with your parents?
Hm, I don't really remember to be honest. I'm a good girl lol

How did you get one of your scars?
When I had an ingrown nail and half of it had to removed, ew.

How are you feeling at this moment?
Bored.

How did your night go last night?
Not very well.

How did you do in high school?
I think i can say I did pretty well lol

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
Um, dunno, but I guess it was a Christmas gift from my mother. That's the only way I get new PJs lol

What did you go to bed thinking about last night?
Probably some story I've read.

What do you need to be doing right now?
Writing!

Do you want to ask somebody something?
Probably, yeah.

Has anyone said they love you in the past week?
My mother maybe.

Have you broken someone's heart?
No

Who do you want to go out with?
Friends.

How late did you stay up last night? Why?
Till 3.30, but I've no idea why.

How was your weekend?
Pretty awesome seeing as I was still the at the festival :)

What can't you wait for?
Currently today afternoon to see the new HP movie.

Do you have a nickname?
Barush

Wallpaper on your mobile phone?
I think it's a Sunshine pic lol .

Next time you will kiss someone?
No idea but probably not in the near future.

Where was your default picture taken?
I've many default pics at various sites so...

What's the most interesting thing that happened today?
Nothing yet.

Who's car were you in last?
During my driving lessons, so I guess the car belongs to the driving school lol

What are you listening to?
Mr. Catastrophe by Sunshine on repeat.

What's your mom's middle name?
She doesn't have one

What's your favorite brand of shoes?
Converse : )

Kickballl or foursquare?
No idea

Is love really worth fighting for?
Honestly, dunno. But I'm not a romantic so probably not.

Is your guard always up?
Most of the time, yeah.

Would you push someone off a cliff if you had the chance?
Lmao well, it is possible, but I'm sure I'd regret it later.

Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?
My mother

Do you know anyone named amanda?
Yes!

Does anyone call you babe or baby?
Haha no

What are you most looking forward to tomorrow?
Getting home from my grandmother's and reading or smt.

When friends walk out of your life do you go after them?
No, because they probably walked out for a reason. And me being insecure I'd think the reason was me.

Do you think anyone is thinking of you?
Don't think so.

What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
To get the papers for my driving lessons signed .

Do you like being home alone or does it freak you out?
Those are probably my favourite times lol

Name something you did yesterday?
Went for lunch with my father.

Do you have a little sister?
Nope, I'm an only child .

Do you like to listen to the radio when you are in the car?
Yeah

Honestly, has anyone ever seen you in your underwear?
Well, of course lol

Do you ever get good morning texts from anyone?
Nope

Do you regret anything you've done lately?
I think I could come up with something.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Yeah, pretty good.

Who is someone who can always make you laugh, even on a bad day?
Hillary lol And some other friends :)

Have you ever slept in a car?
Yeah, unfortunately.

Do you like to make the first move?
Er, no? lol

Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
Hm don't know.

Have you ever fallen asleep while texting someone?
Yeah, quite a few times

Are you a big fan of snowstorms or thunderstorms?
Thunderstorms, yes!

Have you talked to a complete jerk today?
Not yet lol

Could you ever be friends with someone who hurt you badly?
A few of my friends have hurt me so I have to say yes.

Ugh that was long lol

Faint voices keep digging in my brain...

2009-07-08T18:17:49Z

First of all, THANK YOU to everyone who commented on my last post. You're seriously the best f-list one can have <33 Sorry I didn't reply, but I was kinda overwhelmed with gratitude that all I wanna say is 'thank you' anyways <33

Tomorrow I've got this registration thing at the university, so I'll officially become a student again = ) The school year doesn't start 'till September though.

Also, my mother's currently in Germany with her friend on some kind of sightseeing holiday =) So that means I'm home alone. But not for long, seeing as tomorrow I'm going to a music festival with my friend. It's called Colours of Ostrava and this is the third time we're going there. So I should be pretty excited and all, right? Instead, though, I'm currently on a verge of a panic attack. I can barely type this. I kinda know why. And I hope the thing I'm so anxious about won't be an issue. No, it won't, for sure *chants* Gosh. I think I'm gonna take this mild sedative we have and do something to take my mind off it. Typing it helped a bit too.

Um, okay. Sorry for another whining post.

Talk to you on Monday when I get back from the festival :)

I want to split into pieces, you're dragging me down...

2009-06-25T09:48:28Z

So, now that I have all the possible results from all the universities I've applied to, I can say that finally I know what I'll be doing the next year. So officially I'm gonna stay in Olomouc (I live here, if anyone doesn't know) and study English and Spanish philology. Honestly, I don't know if it was the right choice, but I guess I'll see. If not, then I'll do something else.

However, I'm kinda tired of listening to everybody asking me "why didn't you choose law/international relationships/economics?", "what are you gonna do? everyone speaks English!" or "that sucks that you're staying at home, right??" I wish they'd just stop it. Honesty, nobody (in RL, which is kinda sad) told me I'd made the right choice. Not my parents, not anyone from my little extended family, none of my friends. They either think I've taken an 'easy way out', because lawetcetc is too difficult and languages are oh so easy, or they're sure I'm not intelligent/talented/courageous enough to study something 'meaningful'. You can probably guess how that makes me feel.

Sorry for the rant, but I just had to get it out.

On another note, driving lessons are still terrible. Today I've almost started to cry, but managed to restrain myself. I cannot fucking wait 'till it's over.

barush @ 2009-06-23T09:19:00

2009-06-23T07:22:34Z

If I never drive again, I can die happy.

This is officially the dumbest idea I've ever had. Or my mother, for that matter, since it actually wasn't really my idea. Well, whatever, I'll be the one in a million that doesn't have a driving license. And so what?

Next time, next time, next time we can talk about it

2009-06-15T21:22:57Z

I've been away for a while - my net wasn't working. Again. It's okay now. Well, as okay as it gets anyways.

So what's new? Did I miss anything?

I probably haven't told you that I was accepted to the uni in here, English+Spanish. And I guess that's where I'm gonna study the next year, even though it means I'll stay at home. But one can't have everything, right? I'm still waiting for the results from Brno, but I'm fairly decided already.

Also, I officially hate driving. It just keeps getting worse and I'm kinda growing tired of it. Probably because I have no real desire to have a driving license and it was my mother who talked me into it. I've a feeling that the instructor is getting frustrated with me too. Well, I don't wonder.

Also, I need to write a fic, but I haven't written anything in a few months so that's probably gonna be a disaster.

Oh well. Nothing really new in here. So, later I guess.