Make a stand, take my hand...

08 July 2009 @ 08:00 pm

Faint voices keep digging in my brain...

First of all, THANK YOU to everyone who commented on my last post. You're seriously the best f-list one can have <33 Sorry I didn't reply, but I was kinda overwhelmed with gratitude that all I wanna say is 'thank you' anyways <33

Tomorrow I've got this registration thing at the university, so I'll officially become a student again = ) The school year doesn't start 'till September though.

Also, my mother's currently in Germany with her friend on some kind of sightseeing holiday =) So that means I'm home alone. But not for long, seeing as tomorrow I'm going to a music festival with my friend. It's called Colours of Ostrava and this is the third time we're going there. So I should be pretty excited and all, right? Instead, though, I'm currently on a verge of a panic attack. I can barely type this. I kinda know why. And I hope the thing I'm so anxious about won't be an issue. No, it won't, for sure *chants* Gosh. I think I'm gonna take this mild sedative we have and do something to take my mind off it. Typing it helped a bit too.

Um, okay. Sorry for another whining post.

Talk to you on Monday when I get back from the festival :)

Tags: music, university

Is : home

Feeling :

anxious

Listening to : Sunshine - Blood Is The New Black

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25 June 2009 @ 11:30 am

I want to split into pieces, you're dragging me down...

So, now that I have all the possible results from all the universities I've applied to, I can say that finally I know what I'll be doing the next year. So officially I'm gonna stay in Olomouc (I live here, if anyone doesn't know) and study English and Spanish philology. Honestly, I don't know if it was the right choice, but I guess I'll see. If not, then I'll do something else.

However, I'm kinda tired of listening to everybody asking me "why didn't you choose law/international relationships/economics?", "what are you gonna do? everyone speaks English!" or "that sucks that you're staying at home, right??" I wish they'd just stop it. Honesty, nobody (in RL, which is kinda sad) told me I'd made the right choice. Not my parents, not anyone from my little extended family, none of my friends. They either think I've taken an 'easy way out', because lawetcetc is too difficult and languages are oh so easy, or they're sure I'm not intelligent/talented/courageous enough to study something 'meaningful'. You can probably guess how that makes me feel.

Sorry for the rant, but I just had to get it out.

On another note, driving lessons are still terrible. Today I've almost started to cry, but managed to restrain myself. I cannot fucking wait 'till it's over.

Tags: driving lessons, university, whining

Is : home

Feeling :

crushed

Listening to : Sunshine - Don't walk away

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23 June 2009 @ 09:19 am

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If I never drive again, I can die happy.

This is officially the dumbest idea I've ever had. Or my mother, for that matter, since it actually wasn't really my idea. Well, whatever, I'll be the one in a million that doesn't have a driving license. And so what?

Tags: driving lessons

Is : home

Feeling :

cranky

Listening to : Nick Cave - Lay Me Low

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15 June 2009 @ 11:19 pm

Next time, next time, next time we can talk about it

I've been away for a while - my net wasn't working. Again. It's okay now. Well, as okay as it gets anyways.

So what's new? Did I miss anything?

I probably haven't told you that I was accepted to the uni in here, English+Spanish. And I guess that's where I'm gonna study the next year, even though it means I'll stay at home. But one can't have everything, right? I'm still waiting for the results from Brno, but I'm fairly decided already.

Also, I officially hate driving. It just keeps getting worse and I'm kinda growing tired of it. Probably because I have no real desire to have a driving license and it was my mother who talked me into it. I've a feeling that the instructor is getting frustrated with me too. Well, I don't wonder.

Also, I need to write a fic, but I haven't written anything in a few months so that's probably gonna be a disaster.

Oh well. Nothing really new in here. So, later I guess.

Tags: driving lessons, university

Is : home

Feeling :

blah

Listening to : Sunshine - Tokyo Bassline

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08 June 2009 @ 11:41 am

They keep calling me, keep calling me, catastrophe, catastrophe...

So, after 2 hours of driving a car (or rather trying to), I think I'll be the person, who, if they ever get a driving license, won't be able to drive a car on their own. I cannot imagine driving by myself, he needs to tell me every single thing and frankly, I don't mind. Yes, it's that bad. I'm completely hopeless. The instructor thinks so too, even though he didn't tell me in so many words. But still. Well, at least I can say I tried. However, who knows, maybe I'll miraculously get better lmao

Also, I *think* that the results of the entrance exams here in Olomouc should be published today or tomorrow so I'm totally not checking the site every 5 minutes... lol But usually, when I'm this nervous about something, it doesn't go well. I guess I'll see soon enough though.

Tomorrow at 7.45am (meh) another hour of attempting to drive. I cannot say I'm looking forward to it.

Tags: driving lessons, university

Is : home

Feeling :

blah

Listening to : Sunshine - Mr. Catastrophe

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03 June 2009 @ 06:24 pm

What a creepy dream, I cut my fingers off...

So, it's official now, my best friend didn't get in to any university. If I should be perfectly honest, I was afraid this might happen, but didn't want to say anything. Well, now I can :( She sent just 3 applications (I know people who had 9. I had 6.), all of them for history of art or arts in general, where usually a lot of people apply and they accept just a small fraction of them. She's not stupid or anything, but the tests are those of 'general knowledge' only, nothing else, and they're really, really difficult. Oh well. I've no clue what she's gonna do next year.

Anyways, the English/Spanish tests were rather difficult, more so in Brno, so I'm afraid I really might end up in Prague after all. Well, I guess I'll know for sure in a few weeks.

Also, I have my first driving lesson tomorrow afternoon! Like, really attempting to drive an actual car. I doubt it'll happen though, as I've no clue which pedal is which or even where to stick the key to start the car, but that's what they should teach me lol But anyways, my first time attempting to drive, omg! lol I dunno if I'm more excited or apprehensive. The latter, I guess.

Tags: driving lessons, university

Is : home

Feeling :

drained

Listening to : Sunshine - Mr. Catastrophe

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31 May 2009 @ 03:50 pm

Blood's the new black, shiny and bright

Guys! I'm still alive, don't you worry haha Not that you would, of course =)

Anyways, I haven't updated in a while but not 'cause of a lack of anything to say but because I've been kinda busy. Which is surprising, as my life is usually really boring during holidays. That's right, holidays!=) I've been without school for over 2 weeks now.

I need to structure this somehow lol So, universities first. I've been accepted to Prague to the faculty of humanity studies or whatever it's called. I don't wanna go there but if I don't get anywhere else Prague it is. Now I know I haven't been accepted to Brno for the special pedagogy thing, as expected, seeing as I fucked up the exam. Tomorrow I have entrance exams here in Olomouc for English and Spanish and on Tuesday in Brno, for the same thing. That's right, I can go to Brno too as they were so kind to move my exams to Tuesday lol So I'll see how that goes and if I don't get there I'll go to Prague.

So, what I've been busy with?

Parties =) After-graduation week usually consists of drinking from dusk to dawn. I haven't been drinking much though and even despite that I got two migraines in one week!=/ Both when my friend was sleeping over. The second one was really bad so I feel kinda embarrassed that my friend had to witness that, meh. She was okay with it though and I'm not sure I'd make it home to bed and pills without her. So, not really enjoyable time at all.

Also, believe it or not, I've started driving lessons. Well, my mother and my best friend made me, but still. I've been just to two theoretical lessons so far but we might start actually driving a car next week. Just the thought makes me kinda nauseous. So I'm not quite sure I'll ever get a driving license but I'm gonna try lol

Red Cross first aid course. Me and my friend applied for the course 'cause you never know what might happen, right? We learned quite a lot of useful stuff, CPR included =) It's been kinda fun too and at the end we got this international card that we're all educated now lol Frankly, it feels kinda good to know, at least in theory, how to help someone in need. Hopefully though we'll never need it.

I guess that's all worth mentioning, the rest was just random hanging out=)

It's been raining for the past two days and the weather's been just miserable. And it kinda makes me miserable too as I usually get headaches and feel tired when the weather's like this. Oh well. I'll be away, more or less, for the next two days, writing various exams. But then I'm done with all school-related stuff 'till September so I can relax and plan my holidays=)

Also, now I have the new Sunshine album and it's pretty awesome. I know nobody cares but if anyone wanted some new music let me know and I'll be more than happy to share=)

Um, if you got to the end of this random post you're brave and deserve to be hugged *hugs*

Tags: driving lessons, music, random, school

Is : home

Feeling :

indescribable

Listening to : Sunshine - Blood Is The New Black

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19 May 2009 @ 01:59 pm

So, this is it the end I guess.

Okay, I know you're probably not all that much interested, but I think that since you've been all so nice to me, you deserve to know how my finals went lol

So, first of all THANK YOU to everyone who wished me luck <333 You're seriously the best friends anyone can have. But anyways, it helped! =) I got the best results I possibly could, 1 from both history and Spanish =) Which is, like, unbelievable.

In history, I picked a terrible question - Dark Ages, meh. You know, Vikings, Goths, Vandals, Frankish empire etc and the worst part of Czech history ever. I kinda fucked up the Czech part but then they told me that the English was really great (lmao) that they decided to be nice =) That, and I had 1 from the written part of the exam.

In Spanish, I picked 'mi familia' which I'm sure you've all deduced means 'my family', so that was one of the easiest questions!=) We ended up speaking about abortion and such stuff, but it went okay =) So yay! I'm done with high school!

I'm going back to school in a bit where they'll gave us the report or whatever and then we're free!=) That means a week of parties, but I'm not sure yet if I'll go to all of them. Today we're having a garden party at my friends and the 'main after-graduating' party is on Friday. Between that I dunno.

Okay, gotta run now. Sorry for boring you lol And once again thank you for all your nice words, it really did help <33

Tags: school

Is : home

Feeling :

blah

Listening to : Solomon Burke - None of us are free

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16 May 2009 @ 09:08 pm

RANT =/

So, five questions to Spanish to go and... I just can't do it anymore. Really, the capacity of my brain has been reached some 20 questions ago and I'm not capable of digesting any more information. I guess I won't last till Monday. AND it feels like I've forgotten all of history. And I when I remember something, it's usually in Spanish and not in English and that's so frustrating... I'm either gonna cry or die now.

So, if you guys want to help me preserve what's left of my mental stability (not much) be so kind and wish me luck with questions sometime during Monday morning. I so need to have a lucky hand, 'cause if I pick some shit I'm totally screwed.

Oh God let it be Monday 1pm already pleasepleaseplease.

Oh, and I'm sick. Probably caught the flu or smt. Good times.

End of rant.

Tags: school, whining

Is : home

Feeling :

frustrated

Listening to : aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

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13 May 2009 @ 12:01 am

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OMG the House finale (finale!! =/) almost made me cry. I'm pathetic.

A lot of stuff happened in RL but I'm not gonna ramble this time. The finals are on Monday so I guess the serious studying starts tomorrow, meh. But then, good bye high school! At this point, I don't really care about the grades that much, I just want the exams to be over. And the uni exams too.

Oh well. Take care all of you =)

Tags: house, school

Is : home

Feeling :

anxious

Listening to : Sunshine - K.I.D.S.

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08 May 2009 @ 01:22 pm

=))

I'm leaving in a minute to go to Brno for another uni entrance exams, which will probably turn out to be useless anyways in the end, as I'm not going to the second part, BUT I just wanted to tell smb that I got an A on the CAE exams I sat a while ago =) So, I'm happy that I didn't waste a small fortune lol

Also, if anyone is interested (which I doubt) here you can listen to the first 3 songs from the upcoming Sunshine album =) Frankly, I don't like them that much but I guess they'll grow on me, as usually =)

Anyways, gotta go now, enjoy the weekend you guys =)

Tags: music, school, sunshine

Is : home

Feeling :

happy

Listening to : Sunshine - K.I.D.S.

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30 April 2009 @ 07:42 pm

Mellow time, cutting deep and down...

This is gonna be real short, 'cause I just need to get it out of my system.

Remember the history written final I've been whining about recently? We got it back and to my huge surprise I got 1! =) It was really close though, I had 51 points out of 60 and 49 was already 2. But the over all marks weren't that good. The most points anyone got was 53 and there were just 4 people who had 1 (out of 16). Honestly, I think the teacher (our class teacher, no less) could have been less strict. Oh well. I guess I can be glad they, for some unexplainable reason, liked my Nazi essay =) And for the oral part I can get maximum 40 points, so altogether the max is 100 and 80 is still 1, 60 still 2... So that means I must get at least 9 points out of 40 to have 2, which would be totally okay with me =) Spanish, on the other hand, will be much worse.

Now to the not so happy news. You might also remember me stressing over the uni applications. Today I got all the invitations for my uni entrance exams and guess what? They're all in one day!!! =/ Prague, Brno and Olomouc, meh. In Brno I have Spanish and English in one day, so they'll move one of them to the next day, but it still means the rest is on the 1st June. So I guess I'm decided I'll sit the exams in Olomouc on the 1st (English and Spanish) and either English or Spanish in Brno on the 2nd, depending on what they'll move. SO this basically means I'll fucking stay here for uni, which really, really sucks. Well, depending if I'll be accepted here. If not, then I'm screwed 'cause I doubt I'll get to Brno. My last hope would be the school in Prague for which I've already sat the exams.

So, I'm pissed beyond belief. Also, I'm sorry if you made it here. I just needed to whine.

Tags: school, whining

Is : home

Feeling :

pissed off

Listening to : Sunshine - You in Your Head

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18 April 2009 @ 05:31 pm

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I'm not dead yet.

I sat the history final on Wednesday and it was much more difficult than I'd expected. Or at least the multiple choice part. I mean, questions like "What was the religion in the Mogul empire in India?" or "Who moved the Pope from Avignon back to Rome?" or "How many days lasted the Berlin Airlift?" just weren't cool. It felt like a guessing game. I know about at least 6 mistakes so far (there were 40 multiple questions) and there's surely more. Then, for the source work, I chose the documents about Cuban missile crisis. It was either that or the Munich agreement from 1938, but that was too related to the Czech Republic that I felt I should know more about it lol The essay topics were terrible as usually so I wrote 'The Treaty of Versailles was the principle cause of Hitler's rise to power' and I basically made Hitler a nice, caring man lmao I mean, they could use the essay for Nazi propaganda right away *facepalm* Oh well.

And today I sat my first university entrance exam. In Prague at 8.30am so we went there yesterday with my mother. It wasn't as difficult as I'd expected this time. It was an English text (about Jihad) and we had to translate it to Czech with the use of a dictionary. However, I wouldn't want to go to this school so I don't particularly care if I'm accepted or not.

Now I'm gonna catch up on House fics lol

Tags: random, school

Is : home

Feeling :

blah

Listening to : Sarah Brightman - Tu

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14 April 2009 @ 10:47 pm

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What a game!!! Yes, Chelsea, yes! =) And Frank <33333

Ahem. Champions League game, Liverpool - Chelsea 4:4, but Chelsea goes to the semifinal =))

I managed to completely forget about history. And Sunshine =/// Oh well. So, tomorrow. Wish me luck? Although some of you already did, so thank you <33

I guess I should go to bed now so good night everyone =)

Tags: chelsea, frank lampard

Is : home

Feeling :

excited

Listening to : Nick Cave - Bring It On

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14 April 2009 @ 09:58 am

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OMG FUCK STUDYING! I NEED TO SEE THE NEW HOUSE! *dead*

That happens when you stay home from school and read what happened in the epi BEFORE smb uploaded it. I don't think I can wait 'till the afternoon, let alone study lol

Oh well. Addicts have a difficult life.

EDIT: Okay, I've seen it now. And it was pretty awesome. But 2 weeks till the next one, I'm not sure I can wait that long!

Anyways, back to history. 'Cause, the exam's tomorrow. And I don't remember anything, oops.

Tags: house

Is : home

Feeling :

excited

Listening to : House preview

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13 April 2009 @ 11:19 am

It is your turn, my beloved one, it is your flesh that I wear

( History whining again! Beware! )

Tags: school, whining

Is : in my room, thank god

Feeling :

morose

Listening to : Nick Cave - Avalanche

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12 April 2009 @ 05:31 pm

!!WHINING!!

Jesus fucking Christ, I'm fucking sick of history already. I'm at question 24 out of 28 but I guess I lost my sanity somewhere between questions 10 and 11, during the 100 years war. Really, I don't remember anything. And... they made me hate Middle East with passion, I can't remember what difference is between Fatah, Hamas or Hezbollah anymore, let alone what PLO means. Fucking wars, fucking terrorists. Really, why can't there be peace? 'Cause like that there'd be at least 50% of shit less to study. Ironically, the WWII is probably the only thing I really do remember. I spent my whole afternoon with communism, those lovely comrades Stalin, Kruschew, Gorbachev and a lot more. And guess what's next? Yup, Yugoslavia. I'm not gonna survive the next month, because when I'm just thinking about studying all this shit again for the oral exam I feel like running a bullet through my head. What a great idea to choose history for my finals, right? Right? And I haven't even started with Spanish yet.

I need a coffee and House porn and a House epi. And then, then I'm gonna finish those 4 remaining questions and fucking forget all about history and hope I won't fuck it up too much on Wednesday.

Sorry if you get here, you can go back to whatever you've been doing before.

Oh and happy Easter! =) I'm obviously enjoying it.

Tags: shool, whining

Is : USSR, or at least it feels so, meh.

Feeling :

fucking pissed

Listening to : Nick Cave - Papa won't leave you Henry

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10 April 2009 @ 10:39 pm

Yay =)

So finally I went shopping with my father and bought my belated b-day present. Yep, a new camera=) The old one usually dies after taking like 5 pics, meh. Anyways, clearly, what else to do with it but take pics? lol

( Random. Maybe even scary. So beware. )

Tags: pics, random

Is : home

Feeling :

sick

Listening to : Silvio Rodriguez - Fusil Contra Fusil

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07 April 2009 @ 11:07 pm

In a dawn so very dark...

Stolen from

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Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions.

Pick your artist: Nick Cave and The Bad Seeds

Are you male or female: West Country Girl

Describe yourself: Stranger Than Kindness

How do you feel about yourself: Hiding All Away

Describe where you currently live: Sail Away

If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Moonland

Your best friend is a: Lovely Creature

You know: People Ain't No Good

What's the weather like: Ain't Gonna Rain Anymore

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: More News From Nowhere

What is life to you: Death Is Not The End

Your love life: Faraway, So Close

What is the best advice you have to give: Bring It On

If you could change your name, what would it be: Black Betty

Your favorite food is: Opium Tea

Tags: meme, music, nick cave

Is : home

Feeling :

sleepy

Listening to : Nick Cave - Ain't Gonna Rain Anymore

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07 April 2009 @ 04:48 pm

And the sun goes down, going round and round to nowhere

Well, the long-anticipated House epi was rather anti-climatic, hm. For me at least. That happens when you expect too much I guess.

Also, I'm not dead. Just didn't feel like whining in here, although I'd have a lot to whine about. But to try to justify my lack of updating, I'm trying to study for my written final exam from history, which is on the 15th April, and therefore I'm aiming to cut down on my online time. Those who have me added on msn probably know how well it's working *facepalm* I'm currently somewhere in the 1850s so there's a long way to go to the 2000s, including two world wars and so much other shit. I'd better stop now and go studyyy, meh.

Also, I got my period after just 14 days today and generally feel like shit. I hate doctors, so I hope nothing else happens *sigh*

Tags: house, school

Is : home

Feeling :

crappy

Listening to : Nick Cave - Where do we go but nowhere?

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